Soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo this past weekend has been OUTRAGIOUS!! But let's start at the beginning. Idk HOW drama ALWAYS finds its way into my life.. but apparantly I'm a freakin magnet.
So friday, April 17: My lovely roommate decides to have a cookout. Thas cool with me. Seeing as how she's on the track team, she wanted to invite all of her track friends. Again: thas cool with me. They were bringing the food and my roommate and I provided the grill and the house. So everything starts off fine. I bring my stereo out of my room into the living room and everyone's havin a good time. Now to understand the situation completely, you must understand my apt complex: these are APTS, not townhouses, so there are a, b, and c levels. I stay on level a, which is the ground floor. Now every apt comes with a "patio" if you're on the bottom level, it's concrete, but if you're on b or c its made out of wood. So returning to the story... everyone is having a good time and then some BIG ass, random ass dudes show up.. Okay, so now I'm pissed. Like all these guests are just that.. .GUESTS. You can't randomly invite other people without askin me or my roommate! You def didnt bring any food and neither did these guys, so all they're tryin to do is come here and eat and that's a big ass HELL NO. So once I'm finally over it, a hit song comes on, and everyone is bumpin to the music provided by yours truly... Then it happens.
KNOCK, KNOCK, KNOCK
yea its the cops. EVERY weekend they show up because somethin crazy always happens. So my roommate and I step outside to deal with them. There are two burly ass men, and one woman. So they say that we 1: we have too many people at the house (and honestly there was like 20 extra people there), 2: the music was too loud (yea it was) and 3: the grill has to be 20 feet from the house! Ummmmmmmmmmmmmm NO actually it doesnt. So I return inside the house and turn the music down. I also inform some of the people that they gotta leave. I go back outside
Male cop: we need to see both of your ids
My roommate: (politely) Why?
Lady cop: (clappin her hands, and excessively loud) WE NEED TO SEE YOUR IDS, AND IF WE CANT VERIFY YOUR IDENTITY WE'LL ARREST YOU AND TAKE YOU TO JAIL.
My roommate: Don't clap your hands at me, like that's very disrespectful. I just asked you a simple question... which you haven't answered.
Lady cop: WE HAVE TO SPEAK WITH AUTHORITY, NOW WE NEED TO SEE YOUR IDS
Me: ok, we'll be back with our ids
we return inside the house and I'm SERIOUSLY tryin to calm my roommate down because I don't want her to get arrested and she's really upset. So I go into my room and retrieve my id. I go outside and give it to them and we wait for my roommate to return. She doesn't have her license, but the cops didn't specify, so it doesnt matter. these FOUL ass cops actually waited for her to return so they could put the ticket in HER name... they clearly don't like her. So at this point.. she's PISSED. I'm trying to remain calm, keep the officers calm, and keep my roommate calm, so I retreat into my house for a cig. I return with 2, and my roommate brings me my hoodie. As I'm smoking one, I'm putting on my hoodie at the same time. My DUMB ass snaps the cig at the filter.
Me: FUCK
Lady cop: you can't talk like that. I'm writing you another summons.
Me: WHAT? I wasn't even TALKING to you. I said Fuck because I broke my cig at the filter and now I can't smoke it! So what are you even talking about??? I can't say fuck outside of myapt??
DAMN I was sooo pissed! I mean what kinda law is that?? I actually got a ticket for cursing!
Ugh, I got into the house and tell EVERYONE that they gotta get the FUCK out. Like right now. So they leave and I'm left with my angry roommate. Now Friday night was also supposed to be the night of this CRAZY party. But at this point, I really don't even wanna go.
I take a shower and force myself to go. Now once I've arrived, Late of course, the female line is rapped around the damn corner. I just walk to the front tho because... well shit because I wanted too. And WHO is workin the party but naomi??? LOL. She acts very professional and all, but it was still a little wierd seein her. She looked good. So I'm in now, party is jumpin and before I know it people are fightin and the music is turned off. WTF??? Really? The party wasn't supposed to end until 6am and its only 12. While the music is off I run into this stud who was tryin to holla at me last year... but I jus wasn't feelin her. She introduces me to her girlfriend (who is HOT) and I dance with her for a little bit, once the music is back on. So then the music stops again! ANOTHER fight. WTH?? Eventually it gets shut down and I've only been in there for a total of a hour and a half. DAMN I'm mad. At this point, the only thing that can make me feel better is sex.
So I hit up kim.
No answer. Ugh.
I just decide to go to bed.
SAT, April 18: I awake to a text from kim apologizin for not responding to my text. whatever. I tell her to come over and make it up to me.... surprisingly, she does. And she DEF makes it up to me. She's a little shy when it comes to her body, and doens't like tobe naked... but I'm sure that'll change in time. She leaves for her meeting and I take a quick nap. I get up and perform my usual sat ritual which is cleaning the ENTIRE apt from top to bottom. My roommate has left for another track meet and I have the entire house to myself. After I'm finished, my phone rings: It's Steve. HA. He asks if he can wash clothes at my house. Sure, why not? I mean I kinda owe him one after crashing at his house right?
So he comes over and we sit at the table and talk about our past relationship over some jello shots. Once they're all gone, I break out the E&J and we take a couple shots. Yea you know what's comin next, the sex talk. But before him and I breach the topic my phone vibrates again: It's the girl from the party lastnight! LOL. Apparently her girlfriend found me attractive and wants to have a threesome. Wow. I say I'll think about it. I've never had a threesome before, but I must admit that I'm curious. We agree we'll talk about it later. But back to steve. He admits he hasn't had sex in awhile, and I admit I had sex that morning.... and then he says he's horny. I figure why not?? I'm still attracted to him. He's the last guy I had sex with, and I haven't gotten some decent dick since him and I split. So yea, I screwed kim and steve within hours of each other and I FULLY enjoyed it! LOL. It will never happen again of course, and I see it more as closure. He dried his clothes and left.
Hours later, my phone rings again: rebound guy! HAHAHA. No I'm no smut, nothing serious happened. He just came over, ordered a pizza and chilled with me, while I watched a movie. THAT'S ALL. I kicked him out when kim said she wanted to come over tho. LOL. she didn't, but I was tired anyway.
Sunday April 19th: Okay so sundays are my homework days. I just like to chill, do the required homework, watch my favorite vh1 shows and go to sleep... and that's all that happened. LOL
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
All smiles... I think
Okay sooooo Lastnight was eventful.
First off let me sum up what happened with my electricity. My stupid rental office was open yesterday, so I decided to give them a call and explain the situation. I recalled the people at the power company and was put on hold as they contacted my rental office. They returned and said since both me AND my roommates name was on the lease than we BOTH had to have our name on the bill... ummm ok. Whatever. Problem is they had some kind of issue confirming my roommates identity, so she had to fax them a copy of her license, birth certificate, and social security card. Once she did that, they said it would take up to 72 hours! WTH??? People LIVE here!
But as my title says, I'm all smiles because I just learned it got put back on today... PRAISE his HOLY, HOLY name.
So Lastnight... due to the fact I had no electricity.... I spent the night at Steve's house. Yea I kno. Crazy right? I think he was a little reluctant, but he allowed me to stay. I had a BANGIN dinner, because Steve is THE greatest cook I've ever met, watched a movie and decided to call it a night at 9:40. Now I'm sure you wanna know WHERE we slept? Well, he slept in his bed, and I slept on the couch...... for some of the night. LOL. I DEF did behave tho! NO hanky panky from me! Not that he didn't make it clear he would have. But in the middle of the night, I decided that I didn't want to sleep alone anymore. So I proceeded up the steps to his bedroom and went to sleep. It was actually kinda nice. Call it closure.
But this morning, I'm treating my roommate out to breakfast in the student center and who would walk in but KIM. Wait lemme back track for a minute, Kim has a bestfriend... make that 2 bestfriends. She's usually only with one at a time, but when she is.. it's like WILL & Fuckin Grace... in reverse. She's the gay and they're both straight
God. That show was funny to watch.... but in real life. It's NO WONDER they're all single. I'm really not surprised. They sleep in Kim's bed EVERYNIGHT... I mean they just CLING to each other NIGHT and DAY. We'll just call these guys Grace 1 and Grace 2. EVERYTHING that comes out of Kim's effin mouth is about one of the Graces.
Example: Yesterday afternoon after I was finished with classes, we were supposed to chill. JUST KIM and I, NO ONE ELSE. But oooohhhhhh NO, Grace 1 lost his keys and she just HAD to help him find them... that took 2 hours. Meanwhile, I just left.
So once I got to steves house, I texted Kim and asked if she was available to talk... I mean I kinda missed her. She says yes. Well whatdaya kno? Who's in the background talking to her but Grace! Idk which one but I mean her and I were on the phone for 20 minutes and probably only Actually talked for about 5, the rest of the time she was saying "hold on" and talking to Grace. It drove me NUTS, so I just said I was gonna hang up.
But anyway, She walks in and sits at my table, and after my roommate leaves, I begin to TRY to express my concerns. It's really hard to try to get to know someone when you can't really see them and when you CAN they aren't alone. Kim is on the Dean's list, she's in numerous clubs etc, and I love that about her but DAMN any free time she gets is consumed with GRACE. So I told her it was a serious turn off. She confided in me and told me when she got out of her last serious relationship, she was really heartbroken and the Graces were there for her... and now she's just grown accustomed to it and is scared to put herself out there again. She says once she's actually with a person, she's VERY different, but I had to interrupt her and tell her we're NEVER gonna get to that point if she doesn't change.
First off let me sum up what happened with my electricity. My stupid rental office was open yesterday, so I decided to give them a call and explain the situation. I recalled the people at the power company and was put on hold as they contacted my rental office. They returned and said since both me AND my roommates name was on the lease than we BOTH had to have our name on the bill... ummm ok. Whatever. Problem is they had some kind of issue confirming my roommates identity, so she had to fax them a copy of her license, birth certificate, and social security card. Once she did that, they said it would take up to 72 hours! WTH??? People LIVE here!
But as my title says, I'm all smiles because I just learned it got put back on today... PRAISE his HOLY, HOLY name.
So Lastnight... due to the fact I had no electricity.... I spent the night at Steve's house. Yea I kno. Crazy right? I think he was a little reluctant, but he allowed me to stay. I had a BANGIN dinner, because Steve is THE greatest cook I've ever met, watched a movie and decided to call it a night at 9:40. Now I'm sure you wanna know WHERE we slept? Well, he slept in his bed, and I slept on the couch...... for some of the night. LOL. I DEF did behave tho! NO hanky panky from me! Not that he didn't make it clear he would have. But in the middle of the night, I decided that I didn't want to sleep alone anymore. So I proceeded up the steps to his bedroom and went to sleep. It was actually kinda nice. Call it closure.
But this morning, I'm treating my roommate out to breakfast in the student center and who would walk in but KIM. Wait lemme back track for a minute, Kim has a bestfriend... make that 2 bestfriends. She's usually only with one at a time, but when she is.. it's like WILL & Fuckin Grace... in reverse. She's the gay and they're both straight
God. That show was funny to watch.... but in real life. It's NO WONDER they're all single. I'm really not surprised. They sleep in Kim's bed EVERYNIGHT... I mean they just CLING to each other NIGHT and DAY. We'll just call these guys Grace 1 and Grace 2. EVERYTHING that comes out of Kim's effin mouth is about one of the Graces.
Example: Yesterday afternoon after I was finished with classes, we were supposed to chill. JUST KIM and I, NO ONE ELSE. But oooohhhhhh NO, Grace 1 lost his keys and she just HAD to help him find them... that took 2 hours. Meanwhile, I just left.
So once I got to steves house, I texted Kim and asked if she was available to talk... I mean I kinda missed her. She says yes. Well whatdaya kno? Who's in the background talking to her but Grace! Idk which one but I mean her and I were on the phone for 20 minutes and probably only Actually talked for about 5, the rest of the time she was saying "hold on" and talking to Grace. It drove me NUTS, so I just said I was gonna hang up.
But anyway, She walks in and sits at my table, and after my roommate leaves, I begin to TRY to express my concerns. It's really hard to try to get to know someone when you can't really see them and when you CAN they aren't alone. Kim is on the Dean's list, she's in numerous clubs etc, and I love that about her but DAMN any free time she gets is consumed with GRACE. So I told her it was a serious turn off. She confided in me and told me when she got out of her last serious relationship, she was really heartbroken and the Graces were there for her... and now she's just grown accustomed to it and is scared to put herself out there again. She says once she's actually with a person, she's VERY different, but I had to interrupt her and tell her we're NEVER gonna get to that point if she doesn't change.
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Bitchassness...pt2
After talking to a colleague, I realized that I forgot to mention the other lame ass things that have been happening at my "job".
First, the reader MUST remember that I am a student Full time. That to me means, it should be my primary focus. My school has a program called "work-study". Idk if every school has it or not, but it's simply a job here on campus. There ARE rules however. You must be a student, full time, and you cannot work more than 20 hours a week. Oh, and you get paid 6.55 an hour... yea I kno. Not much, but NO taxes come out, which take a LITTLE of the sting away.
So I chose to work with Student accounts in the business office. My boss's name is "Courtney". She was cool at first, but as time has progressed, I've began to see how much of a BITCH she really is! I try to be respectful and everything, but she Really pushes my buttons.
The first problem I had with her involved Steve. For some reason she just didn't like him.... Like AT ALL. And It's not like I ever told her anything about him or anything, but she just didn't like him, and didn't like the fact that I was with him. Fine. If that's how you feel... then that's how you feel, but DON'T think you can just be all ignorant and make little snide comments about a relationship you know NOTHIN at all about. I found that to be quite ignorant. She actually made it her duty to ask me if I was sleeping with him.... umm you're not my mother and even if you WERE that's STILL none of you're business! Ugh that was so annoying. I would be talking to other co-workers about him and she would stop what she was doing to interject about how I shouldn't let this guy change my mind about any decision, and how he really shouldn't be in my life at all. Ummm WHO made YOU the go-to person?? Last time I checked your ass was single with a damn kid! So maybe you should have followed your OWN advice and just stayed out of my business.
Problem number two? My hours there. I understand that one should be professional when entering any type of business office, but be realistic! I'm a STUDENT first. The whole reason I'm IN school is so that I DON'T get the dumb, data entry job you have! Whenever I have a paper, or a group project or something of that nature I call out. And I don't feel bad. Sometimes I'll just be tired from staying up all night from a different project and can't get up at 8 to be there by 9. GET OVER IT. She really gets mad and starts to bitch because I'm not there to do HER job for her for 6.55! HA. You're really crazy!
I mean who seriously gets like that? You should be GRATEFUL when my ass Does show up because I'm lessening the load for YOU. She really be trippin... like how GAY are you?? That shit is wack.
First, the reader MUST remember that I am a student Full time. That to me means, it should be my primary focus. My school has a program called "work-study". Idk if every school has it or not, but it's simply a job here on campus. There ARE rules however. You must be a student, full time, and you cannot work more than 20 hours a week. Oh, and you get paid 6.55 an hour... yea I kno. Not much, but NO taxes come out, which take a LITTLE of the sting away.
So I chose to work with Student accounts in the business office. My boss's name is "Courtney". She was cool at first, but as time has progressed, I've began to see how much of a BITCH she really is! I try to be respectful and everything, but she Really pushes my buttons.
The first problem I had with her involved Steve. For some reason she just didn't like him.... Like AT ALL. And It's not like I ever told her anything about him or anything, but she just didn't like him, and didn't like the fact that I was with him. Fine. If that's how you feel... then that's how you feel, but DON'T think you can just be all ignorant and make little snide comments about a relationship you know NOTHIN at all about. I found that to be quite ignorant. She actually made it her duty to ask me if I was sleeping with him.... umm you're not my mother and even if you WERE that's STILL none of you're business! Ugh that was so annoying. I would be talking to other co-workers about him and she would stop what she was doing to interject about how I shouldn't let this guy change my mind about any decision, and how he really shouldn't be in my life at all. Ummm WHO made YOU the go-to person?? Last time I checked your ass was single with a damn kid! So maybe you should have followed your OWN advice and just stayed out of my business.
Problem number two? My hours there. I understand that one should be professional when entering any type of business office, but be realistic! I'm a STUDENT first. The whole reason I'm IN school is so that I DON'T get the dumb, data entry job you have! Whenever I have a paper, or a group project or something of that nature I call out. And I don't feel bad. Sometimes I'll just be tired from staying up all night from a different project and can't get up at 8 to be there by 9. GET OVER IT. She really gets mad and starts to bitch because I'm not there to do HER job for her for 6.55! HA. You're really crazy!
I mean who seriously gets like that? You should be GRATEFUL when my ass Does show up because I'm lessening the load for YOU. She really be trippin... like how GAY are you?? That shit is wack.
Bitchassness
It's Everywhere. Everywhere I look: Bitchassness.
So today, I woken up by a text from my lovely roommate saying our power was shutoff. Great. But let me give you some history on that:
My roommate: Ciera lived at my apartment complex before me. She actually had another roommate Shayla. Shayla's name was the ONLY name that was on the lease, and Ciera just paid rent. So when Shayla decided she was movin out, I took her spot. It's called a transfer. We signed a new lease etc, and now my name and Ciera's name are both on there. But Shayla's is not. She moved out, but allowed us to keep the security deposit.
Now, I had nothing against Shayla at all... I mean, I didn't have to pay my half of the security deposit because of her. So there's no hard feelings. PLUS the electricity is in HER name. Now she claimed not to mind at all. For some reason, the electric bill gets sent to her new address, so whenever it's due, she just calls me and Ciera and let's us know.
So she calls Ciera and I, and tells us the electric bill is due, however Ciera and I have NO money. Like none at all. So she says cool, when we have the money to just pay it. I mean it IS a recession, and there were times (according to Ciera) when Shayla herself couldnt pay bills. So about a week and a half ago, I get a call from Shayla saying she received a notice saying our electricity would be cut off if we didn't pay the past due amount immediately. I inform my roommate.
She calls them, and they say we have an extension until the 22nd... Like NEXT week. So Shayla gives me a call, and says the people at the electric company called her and told her they were gonna cut the electricity off tomorrow (which is today)....ummmm I'm confused! Once my roommate got the extension, she DEF called Shayla to tell her... so WHAT is she talking about?? Idk, but I of course inform my roommate.
So today my electricity if turned off... I never realized how much I used it, until I didn't have it! Like it's REALLY bad!
My roommate calls the electric people and tells them her name is Shayla. TURNS out, Shayla called them yesterday and TOLD them to shut off the electricity here. WTF???
When we spoke she said that once the electricity is cut off, my roommate and I would have to pay the balance and then we could put it in our names. Ugh. If you didn't want the electricity in you're damn name that's ALL you had to say! Like people LIVE here. How do you do that, and then lie and say that's what the electric people say?? It's clear she didn't want the bill in her name anymore, but I think that was a foul move! Like, Ciera has a KID, luckily, he wasn't here, but Shayla didn't know that!
So anyway, Ciera calls the electricity company and pays the entire balance. She then proceeds to try and get it in her name, but can't due to credit problems. So I volunteer. The lady informs me there will be a 180 security deposit, and that she will have to verify my name on the lease. Fine. She then informs me, that even if all of that DOES occur today, we won't get the power back on until tomorrow. WTF? So she puts me on hold as she calls the rental office... they don't pick up (ghetto asses).
So I ask if I can Fax my lease instead? She tells me that'll take up to 72 hours just for them to get it and process it... which means my power wouldn't get cut on tomorrow, or the day after that, OR the day after that. So I've been calling the rental office every now and then and it's STILL going straight to their voicemail. WTH?? Is it a holiday, or something I'm missing? Is it national "Idon'tgiveafuckday"??? Damn this day has been SHITTY and FULL of BITCHASSNESS
So today, I woken up by a text from my lovely roommate saying our power was shutoff. Great. But let me give you some history on that:
My roommate: Ciera lived at my apartment complex before me. She actually had another roommate Shayla. Shayla's name was the ONLY name that was on the lease, and Ciera just paid rent. So when Shayla decided she was movin out, I took her spot. It's called a transfer. We signed a new lease etc, and now my name and Ciera's name are both on there. But Shayla's is not. She moved out, but allowed us to keep the security deposit.
Now, I had nothing against Shayla at all... I mean, I didn't have to pay my half of the security deposit because of her. So there's no hard feelings. PLUS the electricity is in HER name. Now she claimed not to mind at all. For some reason, the electric bill gets sent to her new address, so whenever it's due, she just calls me and Ciera and let's us know.
So she calls Ciera and I, and tells us the electric bill is due, however Ciera and I have NO money. Like none at all. So she says cool, when we have the money to just pay it. I mean it IS a recession, and there were times (according to Ciera) when Shayla herself couldnt pay bills. So about a week and a half ago, I get a call from Shayla saying she received a notice saying our electricity would be cut off if we didn't pay the past due amount immediately. I inform my roommate.
She calls them, and they say we have an extension until the 22nd... Like NEXT week. So Shayla gives me a call, and says the people at the electric company called her and told her they were gonna cut the electricity off tomorrow (which is today)....ummmm I'm confused! Once my roommate got the extension, she DEF called Shayla to tell her... so WHAT is she talking about?? Idk, but I of course inform my roommate.
So today my electricity if turned off... I never realized how much I used it, until I didn't have it! Like it's REALLY bad!
My roommate calls the electric people and tells them her name is Shayla. TURNS out, Shayla called them yesterday and TOLD them to shut off the electricity here. WTF???
When we spoke she said that once the electricity is cut off, my roommate and I would have to pay the balance and then we could put it in our names. Ugh. If you didn't want the electricity in you're damn name that's ALL you had to say! Like people LIVE here. How do you do that, and then lie and say that's what the electric people say?? It's clear she didn't want the bill in her name anymore, but I think that was a foul move! Like, Ciera has a KID, luckily, he wasn't here, but Shayla didn't know that!
So anyway, Ciera calls the electricity company and pays the entire balance. She then proceeds to try and get it in her name, but can't due to credit problems. So I volunteer. The lady informs me there will be a 180 security deposit, and that she will have to verify my name on the lease. Fine. She then informs me, that even if all of that DOES occur today, we won't get the power back on until tomorrow. WTF? So she puts me on hold as she calls the rental office... they don't pick up (ghetto asses).
So I ask if I can Fax my lease instead? She tells me that'll take up to 72 hours just for them to get it and process it... which means my power wouldn't get cut on tomorrow, or the day after that, OR the day after that. So I've been calling the rental office every now and then and it's STILL going straight to their voicemail. WTH?? Is it a holiday, or something I'm missing? Is it national "Idon'tgiveafuckday"??? Damn this day has been SHITTY and FULL of BITCHASSNESS
Monday, April 13, 2009
Mmmmm KIM!!
On a much brighter note (if you read my last post), Kim came over lastnight. =D. What a night I HAD!
So yeah, I know Kim has been playing me, and not showing up like she said she would be.. but she DEF made up everything lastnight. Corrected ALL Wrong doings. LOL. But let me start from the beginning:
Kim sends me a text because she was supposed to come over the night before and bailed on me... again. She texts me how sorry she is, and how she knows she's been bs'in me etc. So what the hell? I decide to give her yet ANOTHER chance... she says she'll come over around noon.
Noon turns into 10pm. She shows up and heads to my room. We talked. I mean we had an EXCELLENT conversation. It's one of the reasons why I like her so much. But we joked around and it got physical.
**Reader, please keep in mind that it is 10pm on a Sunday night, I have classes the next day and homework to finish.**
So Kim swears she's this tough girl, but I can tell that it's really a facade, and that she's actually very sensitive. But keeping with her facade, she playfully pushes me.
HA. You know what THAT leads to!
Annnnnnnddddd it does. She somehow ends up on top of me (OH yeah!!) LOL. But the weird thing is, she likes the lights Completely off... I mean okay, first time you're a little shy, but she says she has NO lamps in her room, that she just likes the dark. So whatever. I turn out the lights.
I must interject and say that her lips have to be the SOFTEST lips I've ever kissed! I mean seriously. And kissing is my thing. But anyway, I stop her. I mean I really like this girl, and when I like someone... I kinda wanna take it slower. She questions why I'm stopping her and I tell her why. I mean I'm horny as ALL hell, but I'm seriously trying to restrain myself. So, I remove myself from her arms, and force myself to the opposite side of the bed (Go me). She then asks me if her and I have had the conversation about how many people we've been with.... ummm no. I'm always a little nervous responding to that question because I feel like, considering my age, and when I lost my virginity... my number is a little on the high side. But what the hell, honesty is the best honesty, and if Kim is really gonna judge me on my past, then she's not the girl I thought she was. So I tell her the truth: I've only slept with 2 girls... but I've been with 10 guys.
I Pause..... silence. Then the silence gets to be too much and I say:
Me: Don't tell me you're number is like ridiculously low.
Kim: It's actually the opposite
Me: really? okay like how many?
Kim: A Lot.
Me: what's a lot? 15? 20?
Kim:
Me: 25? 30?
Kim:
Me: ............................................................................
Kim: 35
Me: (in my head of course:)WHAT???????????? I mean this girl is MY damn age! 35 women??? LMAO and I was worried about my little as 2 girls and 10 guys! Oh wait, I didn't tell you? She has a guy count too! WHHHAAATTT????? Luckily it's only 3, but I mean, WHERE do you find time to sleep with 35 women??????????????????????????? I mean were you in relationship with all of them? Were they only one night stands? I mean were you intoxicated?
Me: wow really? I never would have thought that. But it doesn't really make a difference. The past is the past. I don't view you any different. But ummm how is that possible?
Kim: Some of them were relationships, a few one night stands...
She seems uncomfortable, so I drop it. I mean who am I to judge her? So she used to be a little whore.... that's okay. Some people may consider my number to be a bit whorish... but who the fuck are they? And who the fuck am I? So I drop it. I still like the girl... and I'm still horny.
So somehow, we manage to be all over each other again. And I'm really trying my hardest to stop, but it has been a MINUTE, and she is just touching the right spots. Plus she's kissing me... which turns me on the fastest and THEN she says:
she wants to give me head.
HOW do I say no to that??? I do somehow manage to because although it's been a LONG time... I'm just not like other girls. Head isn't that big of a deal to me. If I never got head again... I'd live. It's just foreplay, and it takes a lot for me to bust off of it. Plus I've only gotten head from 3 people in my life time and that's because I have to be VERY comfortable with a person to do that. I always feel like I'm being selfish.. like they're not getting anything out of it. So what's the point?
So I tell her no. It's outside my comfort zone.. and I'm content just kissing and touching. She will NOT take no for an answer. So.... I give in.
Now, I know I'm supposed to leave past relationships in the past, and not compare, but I mean Come on! Who doesn't compare??? I can't help but to relate this experience to the one I had with Naomi.......
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Okay, so Naomi was better BUT that doesn't mean that Kim was bad, because she wasn't at all. I got off on it, its just
1. I'm not as comfortable with her as I am with Naomi
2. I was kinda Forced into letting her
3. My feelings for her weren't as deep as they were for Naomi.
But Kim DEF had other talents. I must say that I'm not to big on fingering, because I mean, Come on What is that? You do that when you're like 15, 16 experimenting with sex and are hella nervous. But DAAAMMMNNNN Kim was good at it! LOL. She made me reconsider my thoughts on it. Idk how, but her fingers jus landed on my g spot and STAYED there. Mmm I didn't last long. Which is so unlike me! And is actually a little embarrassing, but Kim got it like that. Seriously. So now that I'm off.... it's time to return the favor. I mean, I'm not a selfish lover at ALL, and am willing to do what it takes to get my partner off.
There's just one problem: I DON'T KNOW MY PARTNER
Which is precisely why I wanted to wait. Idk her likes, her dislikes, and yea, some of the fun is exploring and finding out, but I mean I have NO clue... So all I can do is what I did with Naomi, and see if it's a match. If not then I'm fucked.
It's a match.
Lol. Or maybe I'm just that good at sex? Never had a complaint, plus I'm a scorpio... which of course speaks for itself. So she's ALL into it, I mean gettin loud, speakin Chinese and then she drops a bomb on me:
She wants some head.
Now usually studs find such an idea repulsive, but Kim says she likes it. There's just one problem: I'm a pillow queen. And if you can't catch my drift from that let me be frank: I have NEVER given a girl head. I mean I've only been with two and one didn't want me to and the the other girl was SOOOooo horrible, I had no desire to. I mean it's not like the idea itself repulses me... it's just I like to be the best in EVERYTHING that I do, but especially sex. And to try head on a girl I'm really feeling when Idk how I'll be? makes me a little nervous.
I confess to her that I've never done that before... and she says it's not a big deal... But I know it is. Apparently, nothing gets her off like it. Ugh. Long story short... I decide to do it.
It CERTAINLY makes me appreciate it a lot more. I never realized how much of an art giving head truly was! HA! It took me a little while, and we started off in the 69 position, until I found out what I was doing.. but according to how hard she came, I'm assuming I wasn't that bad.
Okay well actually I fibbed.
She DID cum, but it wasn't because of my head. LOL. Idk HOW people stay down there that long, but my damn Jaw got tired! I wanted to stop!! So I did.
How selfish right?
Well the point was for her to cum because of me and she did... it was just because of my hand. That's all.
Damn, my jaw hurts just THINKIN about it. Idk what technique other girls use, but I'll stick to just being a pillow queen.
So, needless to say this went on for HOURS. I completed ZERO work, but I was sexually satisfied. However, it left me with a bad taste in my mouth (LOL no pun intended) about her. I like Kim a lot, but I was kinda turned off on how she couldn't wait! I mean I think I'm over it now, but lastnight... after she left, I just found myself wishin we hadn't even went down that path.
I saw her today, and she came over and gave me a hug, and while we were texting later, I informed her of how I felt... that we shouldn't smash again. I think she thought it wasn't good for me, because she said I tried to play her... but I didn't It was good... I just wanna wait. So now that we've been together, I'm hoping she won't put me thru the ringer to see her again. She says she won't but we'll just have to see.
PS: Is it just me or was the light thing a little bit of a turn off? I don't think there's anything wrong with Kim's body, and although everyone has insecurities... I mean she was Completely dressed before she let me turn on the light.. I mean shoes and all! Idk, maybe things will change at a later date.
So yeah, I know Kim has been playing me, and not showing up like she said she would be.. but she DEF made up everything lastnight. Corrected ALL Wrong doings. LOL. But let me start from the beginning:
Kim sends me a text because she was supposed to come over the night before and bailed on me... again. She texts me how sorry she is, and how she knows she's been bs'in me etc. So what the hell? I decide to give her yet ANOTHER chance... she says she'll come over around noon.
Noon turns into 10pm. She shows up and heads to my room. We talked. I mean we had an EXCELLENT conversation. It's one of the reasons why I like her so much. But we joked around and it got physical.
**Reader, please keep in mind that it is 10pm on a Sunday night, I have classes the next day and homework to finish.**
So Kim swears she's this tough girl, but I can tell that it's really a facade, and that she's actually very sensitive. But keeping with her facade, she playfully pushes me.
HA. You know what THAT leads to!
Annnnnnnddddd it does. She somehow ends up on top of me (OH yeah!!) LOL. But the weird thing is, she likes the lights Completely off... I mean okay, first time you're a little shy, but she says she has NO lamps in her room, that she just likes the dark. So whatever. I turn out the lights.
I must interject and say that her lips have to be the SOFTEST lips I've ever kissed! I mean seriously. And kissing is my thing. But anyway, I stop her. I mean I really like this girl, and when I like someone... I kinda wanna take it slower. She questions why I'm stopping her and I tell her why. I mean I'm horny as ALL hell, but I'm seriously trying to restrain myself. So, I remove myself from her arms, and force myself to the opposite side of the bed (Go me). She then asks me if her and I have had the conversation about how many people we've been with.... ummm no. I'm always a little nervous responding to that question because I feel like, considering my age, and when I lost my virginity... my number is a little on the high side. But what the hell, honesty is the best honesty, and if Kim is really gonna judge me on my past, then she's not the girl I thought she was. So I tell her the truth: I've only slept with 2 girls... but I've been with 10 guys.
I Pause..... silence. Then the silence gets to be too much and I say:
Me: Don't tell me you're number is like ridiculously low.
Kim: It's actually the opposite
Me: really? okay like how many?
Kim: A Lot.
Me: what's a lot? 15? 20?
Kim:
Me: 25? 30?
Kim:
Me: ............................................................................
Kim: 35
Me: (in my head of course:)WHAT???????????? I mean this girl is MY damn age! 35 women??? LMAO and I was worried about my little as 2 girls and 10 guys! Oh wait, I didn't tell you? She has a guy count too! WHHHAAATTT????? Luckily it's only 3, but I mean, WHERE do you find time to sleep with 35 women??????????????????????????? I mean were you in relationship with all of them? Were they only one night stands? I mean were you intoxicated?
Me: wow really? I never would have thought that. But it doesn't really make a difference. The past is the past. I don't view you any different. But ummm how is that possible?
Kim: Some of them were relationships, a few one night stands...
She seems uncomfortable, so I drop it. I mean who am I to judge her? So she used to be a little whore.... that's okay. Some people may consider my number to be a bit whorish... but who the fuck are they? And who the fuck am I? So I drop it. I still like the girl... and I'm still horny.
So somehow, we manage to be all over each other again. And I'm really trying my hardest to stop, but it has been a MINUTE, and she is just touching the right spots. Plus she's kissing me... which turns me on the fastest and THEN she says:
she wants to give me head.
HOW do I say no to that??? I do somehow manage to because although it's been a LONG time... I'm just not like other girls. Head isn't that big of a deal to me. If I never got head again... I'd live. It's just foreplay, and it takes a lot for me to bust off of it. Plus I've only gotten head from 3 people in my life time and that's because I have to be VERY comfortable with a person to do that. I always feel like I'm being selfish.. like they're not getting anything out of it. So what's the point?
So I tell her no. It's outside my comfort zone.. and I'm content just kissing and touching. She will NOT take no for an answer. So.... I give in.
Now, I know I'm supposed to leave past relationships in the past, and not compare, but I mean Come on! Who doesn't compare??? I can't help but to relate this experience to the one I had with Naomi.......
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Okay, so Naomi was better BUT that doesn't mean that Kim was bad, because she wasn't at all. I got off on it, its just
1. I'm not as comfortable with her as I am with Naomi
2. I was kinda Forced into letting her
3. My feelings for her weren't as deep as they were for Naomi.
But Kim DEF had other talents. I must say that I'm not to big on fingering, because I mean, Come on What is that? You do that when you're like 15, 16 experimenting with sex and are hella nervous. But DAAAMMMNNNN Kim was good at it! LOL. She made me reconsider my thoughts on it. Idk how, but her fingers jus landed on my g spot and STAYED there. Mmm I didn't last long. Which is so unlike me! And is actually a little embarrassing, but Kim got it like that. Seriously. So now that I'm off.... it's time to return the favor. I mean, I'm not a selfish lover at ALL, and am willing to do what it takes to get my partner off.
There's just one problem: I DON'T KNOW MY PARTNER
Which is precisely why I wanted to wait. Idk her likes, her dislikes, and yea, some of the fun is exploring and finding out, but I mean I have NO clue... So all I can do is what I did with Naomi, and see if it's a match. If not then I'm fucked.
It's a match.
Lol. Or maybe I'm just that good at sex? Never had a complaint, plus I'm a scorpio... which of course speaks for itself. So she's ALL into it, I mean gettin loud, speakin Chinese and then she drops a bomb on me:
She wants some head.
Now usually studs find such an idea repulsive, but Kim says she likes it. There's just one problem: I'm a pillow queen. And if you can't catch my drift from that let me be frank: I have NEVER given a girl head. I mean I've only been with two and one didn't want me to and the the other girl was SOOOooo horrible, I had no desire to. I mean it's not like the idea itself repulses me... it's just I like to be the best in EVERYTHING that I do, but especially sex. And to try head on a girl I'm really feeling when Idk how I'll be? makes me a little nervous.
I confess to her that I've never done that before... and she says it's not a big deal... But I know it is. Apparently, nothing gets her off like it. Ugh. Long story short... I decide to do it.
It CERTAINLY makes me appreciate it a lot more. I never realized how much of an art giving head truly was! HA! It took me a little while, and we started off in the 69 position, until I found out what I was doing.. but according to how hard she came, I'm assuming I wasn't that bad.
Okay well actually I fibbed.
She DID cum, but it wasn't because of my head. LOL. Idk HOW people stay down there that long, but my damn Jaw got tired! I wanted to stop!! So I did.
How selfish right?
Well the point was for her to cum because of me and she did... it was just because of my hand. That's all.
Damn, my jaw hurts just THINKIN about it. Idk what technique other girls use, but I'll stick to just being a pillow queen.
So, needless to say this went on for HOURS. I completed ZERO work, but I was sexually satisfied. However, it left me with a bad taste in my mouth (LOL no pun intended) about her. I like Kim a lot, but I was kinda turned off on how she couldn't wait! I mean I think I'm over it now, but lastnight... after she left, I just found myself wishin we hadn't even went down that path.
I saw her today, and she came over and gave me a hug, and while we were texting later, I informed her of how I felt... that we shouldn't smash again. I think she thought it wasn't good for me, because she said I tried to play her... but I didn't It was good... I just wanna wait. So now that we've been together, I'm hoping she won't put me thru the ringer to see her again. She says she won't but we'll just have to see.
PS: Is it just me or was the light thing a little bit of a turn off? I don't think there's anything wrong with Kim's body, and although everyone has insecurities... I mean she was Completely dressed before she let me turn on the light.. I mean shoes and all! Idk, maybe things will change at a later date.
Naomi...:::Conclusion:::...
SO, we're finally approaching the last chapter of lovely Naomi. Which is actually a little sad when I think about it. As I last left off, we were supposed to meet today to hammer out the issues and determine the fate of our relationship... So what happened you ask?
NOTHING
I sent her a text asking her if she still wanted to talk to me today, and she promptly answered with a phone call that I had to ignore because I was in class. Well she left me a voicemail and texted me saying we needn't meet up today at all, to just call her back once I was out of class. Ummmm ok. She said nothing was wrong, but that it wasn't necessary for us to meet up.
So after class, I call her. She simply states: She's not gonna press me to have a friendship with her, or to have her in my life. If there ever comes a day when I can move past the situation and want to be her friend that I should give her a call and that she'll be there.
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THAT'S IT.
So, disappointed of course, I say alright and hang up the phone. I guess I was disappointed a little because I expected her to idk have some strong, convincing speech of some sort. She always knows how to engage me in a serious conversation, and her little short blurb over something so serious was a little disappointing.
So fast forward a few hours. I realize that she hast 2 of my favorite movies. So I send her a text asking her to lemme know when she can return them, and I'll have my roommate get them from her. She replies that she'll return one, but not the other..... ummm no. After a bit of back and forth, she finally tells me " I figure if I keep something of yours, you'll always have a reason to come back :("
Me: AWWWWWWWWWWWWW (of course I didn't send that!) But it was def sweet.
Naomi is a good person. She really is. It's just that what happened created a large gap. I'll def miss her tho. This Friday would actually have been our one year anniversary. *sigh* I'll get over it. I told her I can't see her and to just leave the movies with my roommate, but I'm not sure it'll actually play out that way. But even if it doesn't this is Certainly the last you'll be hearing of my beloved Naomi
NOTHING
I sent her a text asking her if she still wanted to talk to me today, and she promptly answered with a phone call that I had to ignore because I was in class. Well she left me a voicemail and texted me saying we needn't meet up today at all, to just call her back once I was out of class. Ummmm ok. She said nothing was wrong, but that it wasn't necessary for us to meet up.
So after class, I call her. She simply states: She's not gonna press me to have a friendship with her, or to have her in my life. If there ever comes a day when I can move past the situation and want to be her friend that I should give her a call and that she'll be there.
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THAT'S IT.
So, disappointed of course, I say alright and hang up the phone. I guess I was disappointed a little because I expected her to idk have some strong, convincing speech of some sort. She always knows how to engage me in a serious conversation, and her little short blurb over something so serious was a little disappointing.
So fast forward a few hours. I realize that she hast 2 of my favorite movies. So I send her a text asking her to lemme know when she can return them, and I'll have my roommate get them from her. She replies that she'll return one, but not the other..... ummm no. After a bit of back and forth, she finally tells me " I figure if I keep something of yours, you'll always have a reason to come back :("
Me: AWWWWWWWWWWWWW (of course I didn't send that!) But it was def sweet.
Naomi is a good person. She really is. It's just that what happened created a large gap. I'll def miss her tho. This Friday would actually have been our one year anniversary. *sigh* I'll get over it. I told her I can't see her and to just leave the movies with my roommate, but I'm not sure it'll actually play out that way. But even if it doesn't this is Certainly the last you'll be hearing of my beloved Naomi
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Naomi... pt 2
So, part two:
Needless to say after have gone thru an experience like that, and Naomi not being there, I wasn't too keen to hit her up.... at ALL. She eventually sends me this Long ass email stating that she misses me, and that she thinks about me all the time, she's sorry for not being there for me, but that she still wants a relationship with me.
HA
Really? I was a little surprised to have heard from her ass at all considering how she jus up and left me... but I still love her. Her actions def hurt me, a lot, but that doesn't negate the feelings that have accumulated for her. I tell her that our relationship is damaged, but that it's fixable. Idk HOW we actually inteded on fixing it, but I know that I was honestly ready to give it a try. This brings me to this semester: spring of 09. Since the break we've been taking it slow, texting, not really pushing anything and then she asks to come over... I hesitate, but I feel like I can handle it.
BOY was I WRONG!!!! Things between us were jus weird and awkward. We used to be able to talk shit to one another (jokingly of course), and have serious conversations, but now? Our conversations are as shallow as 2feet deep lake. I learn from that visit, that I'm not as comfortable with her as I'd like, so we resume to texting.
Fastforward to today, things haven't changed THAT much, she had a "girl" as did, but both relationships fell thru and idk.... I just can't connect with her the way we did last semester. We actually went like 3 weeks without speaking to one another over some dumb ass argument... that's not like us at all.
So to conclude this sequal, I sent her an email. I explained exactly WHY we are the way we are. The trust is gone, and the bond is broken. I will always harbor feelings for her, but she honestly knows nothing about my emotional and physical experiences last semester and you know what? She doesn't DESERVE to know, and I told her such. As a friend, you don't bail when the times get hard. Idk why she didn't know that, but she says she allowed her emotions to take control.
Ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. You're 27 years old! Why haven't you learned how to get that under raps now? Granted, from time to time everyone slips up, but damn! She sure as hell picked the Worse time to do that!
She initally responded to my email saying that she wasn't going to let our friendship go, but she later changed her mind, and said she realizes how hurt I must have been not to have had her, and that if I'm better off without her in my life then she'll fall back.
I'm not quite sure HOW I feel at this point, but her and I have made the decision to talk face-to-face tomorrow and figure it out.
**Wish me luck**
Needless to say after have gone thru an experience like that, and Naomi not being there, I wasn't too keen to hit her up.... at ALL. She eventually sends me this Long ass email stating that she misses me, and that she thinks about me all the time, she's sorry for not being there for me, but that she still wants a relationship with me.
HA
Really? I was a little surprised to have heard from her ass at all considering how she jus up and left me... but I still love her. Her actions def hurt me, a lot, but that doesn't negate the feelings that have accumulated for her. I tell her that our relationship is damaged, but that it's fixable. Idk HOW we actually inteded on fixing it, but I know that I was honestly ready to give it a try. This brings me to this semester: spring of 09. Since the break we've been taking it slow, texting, not really pushing anything and then she asks to come over... I hesitate, but I feel like I can handle it.
BOY was I WRONG!!!! Things between us were jus weird and awkward. We used to be able to talk shit to one another (jokingly of course), and have serious conversations, but now? Our conversations are as shallow as 2feet deep lake. I learn from that visit, that I'm not as comfortable with her as I'd like, so we resume to texting.
Fastforward to today, things haven't changed THAT much, she had a "girl" as did, but both relationships fell thru and idk.... I just can't connect with her the way we did last semester. We actually went like 3 weeks without speaking to one another over some dumb ass argument... that's not like us at all.
So to conclude this sequal, I sent her an email. I explained exactly WHY we are the way we are. The trust is gone, and the bond is broken. I will always harbor feelings for her, but she honestly knows nothing about my emotional and physical experiences last semester and you know what? She doesn't DESERVE to know, and I told her such. As a friend, you don't bail when the times get hard. Idk why she didn't know that, but she says she allowed her emotions to take control.
Ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. You're 27 years old! Why haven't you learned how to get that under raps now? Granted, from time to time everyone slips up, but damn! She sure as hell picked the Worse time to do that!
She initally responded to my email saying that she wasn't going to let our friendship go, but she later changed her mind, and said she realizes how hurt I must have been not to have had her, and that if I'm better off without her in my life then she'll fall back.
I'm not quite sure HOW I feel at this point, but her and I have made the decision to talk face-to-face tomorrow and figure it out.
**Wish me luck**
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